The Cold Life.

Golly. This cold is KICKING MY BUTT! So,, last saturday I went to my grandma's house to see her, and she had my cousins two kids. Well the youngest one, Luckee, had a runny nose but I didn't think anything of it. Well now I have a cold. And I work everynight until next Monday. Yay. And I cannot sleep, I didn't fall asleep until about 1 am and I woke up this morning at 4:45 am. I HATE bein sick :( This also puts a damper on my everyday running.. I mean, I still run.. but not that far. Especially since my inhaler has somehow disapearred (usually my aunt takes it for "allergies") but she says she didn't which really sucks!

So... I think I may have a good chance on getting a job in Cedar, :) which I am super glad for! I am just looking at how early I can go down. Which I hope is sooner than later (I am going INSANE here! haha) Which has me resorting to many different crafts. Which basically means I am not going to have anything to do in college. So maybe I'll quilt an afghan with Aubrey.. that'll be fun right?

 

This is some stuff I have been.. you know.. making :) I love being a DIY'er!! Haha

Well.. I guess it is time for my morning run. With a cold and no inhaler. YAY!!

Bucket List

So I figured if I put this online, it will become more "official" than on the piece of paper it is written on now.. that will eventually get lost.

#1 Study abroad (either Africa or Australia)
#2 Go Skydiving
#3 Go to Disneyland
#4 Travel Europe
#5 Eat Sushi
#6 Drive across the entire U.S. (from Hollywood to New York)
#7 Kiss in the rain..
#8 Go Cliff Jumping
#9 Run everyday for 1 year (except Sundays, of course!) starting July 1, 2012
#10 Run a Ragnar
#11 Run a Marathon
#12 Go on a MASSIVE shopping spree
#13 Go to Hawaii
#14 Get in tip tip shape :) aka lose a few poundages
#15 Go Vegitarian for ONE month
#16 Be more flirtacious
#17 Win a HUGE stuffed animal at a carnival
#18 Order everything on the menu
#19 Meet someone famous (that I actually like)
#20 Go to a concert (and go backstage)
#21 Do Baptisms for the Dead in 30 different temples
#22 Get married in the Temple
#23 Get my Bachelors of Science as an RN!
#24 See a real Giraffe and Cheetah (IN AFRICA)
#25 Learn to speak another language
#26 Get kicked out of a store
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And I will add more as I think of them! :) this'll be fun! ha

I am a new person.

Oh my heavens, has it been a little while. I know I swore I would write on here once a week, but it has been pretty hectic.. to say the least.

To say I am stressed right now is an understatement. I have SOO much to do!! College is in less than TWO months! And I want to move out in less than one... but my biggest stresser of all? A JOB!!!!!!! Like, hello?! How the heck am I supposed to find a job from SIX hours away?! I can't begin to describe how bad my life will SUCK if I can't find a job- for starters I will starve! Gol, I hate stress. Not to mention the $1,000 or so extra in college bills I haven't figured out how to pay yet... Why can't I grow up, but not at the same time?? But maybe all this has been for the best? I think it will somehow work out. I have faith!

These past couple months have been really different I would say, with high school ending and becoming an adult beginning I have had to change A LOT! And I would say some of that changing was definitely not for the best.. With my job at the nursing home I have to work every other weekend (Friday, Saturday, and Sunday) which means I don't get to attend my own ward on those days seeing as how my work is 45 minutes away from home and I live in town on those weekends. Anyways, since I work those weekends it seems I have been filling my other weekends with traveling and getting away (since I work during the weekdays at my other job). This means I have attending my actual ward maybe once in the last couple months.. and I am not even sure when the last time I attended a full 3 hours of church was. To top it off I have been slacking off on prayer and scripture study- and I have felt the effects of it, for sure!

This last week I spent the week with my Aunt Shanna's family in Lava Hot Springs camping, and spending time with Aubrey and her cousins, Jordin and Tyauna. Well during this time I had lots to think about- including my slack in church attendance and even paying attention to my Heavenly Father... And watching my Aunts' family, most of whom are not active in the church and how their lives have ended up... I made a decision. IT IS TIME FOR CHANGE. 100% all around change. I realized, I am not happy- and the way I change that is to address that unhappiness and change it.

I realized, I need to pay A LOT more attention to scripture study and prayer- the Lord comes first! But I also realized mentally, and physically, I am not happy with myself. I need to change the way I think, but also my habits. I feel not only am I way to negative, but I am degrading to myself. And that ALL has to change. Starting right now- this second- I am going to become a happier, positive, and confident me. I am sick of feeling sorry for myself- somethings in life can't be changed, but I can change how I feel about myself and I can (and WILL) change my lifestyle. I want to be more confident with myself when with my friends out doing fun things, not feeling so self-conscience. I need to forget all the negative things that have happened to me in my life, and be more trusting of people. A lot of people have purposely hurt me in my life, and I realize I have had to deal with more than what I should have. But I can't let that affect me anymore! Those people that hurt me mentally, physically, and emotionally have NO control over me anymore. I am a new person.

Now, I am ready for life’s challenges. I am ready to grow up and accept what has been thrown at me, I am ready to change for the better and more than anything, I am ready to move to SUU and be with my two best friends, Abby and Liz. I am ready to change. Being happy with myself and others is a huge challenge, but BRING IT ON!